because i was probably long gone
Mar. 16th, 2009 09:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
perfectlyimperfect(And you probably didn't even notice it, but that's not the point.)
I'm terribly missing this fandom, especially that I haven't been updated that much with news and shows and stuff like that. :( To tell you honestly, I technically have only three weeks left--not counting the Holy Week--before my finals, and obviously that also means that I've been extremely busyand/or lazy to check around here.
For that, I'm sorry. m(_ _)m
And you're probably annoyed with how I'm saying sorry all the time lately.
Anyhoo, I'm already here, so. Updates? :D?
1) My sister, who's graduating Medicine soon, passed her sort-of finals! Yay! :D Everyone calls her "Doctor" now, which is still a little bit weird to me. I know I'll get used to that, but I guess not for now. XD Kidding aside, I remember my sister calling me on the phone three times last week before "the test", constantly telling me that she'd die soon or collapse or get sick or something. (Btw, she rarely calls at all.) One time, she even yelled at me for not telling her not to go on taking Medicine and go to the States instead so she could have become a Medical Technician (her pre-med degree) there. LOL. My sister's usually crazy like that. But that doesn't matter anyway, we have another doctor in the family!
(In case you didn't know, my parents are doctors, and I have many, many relatives who are nurses, doctors and/or have a degree in the science field. orz)
And now I constantly wonder why I wasn't interestedor even gifted in science. I'm the type to just sit back and watch those geniuses at work. (Like those gods from MythBusters, for instance. I adore them.)
2) I'm starting to have nightmares about my incoming internship. While I have no worries about where I'm getting a stint for my internship--Siemens and Citibank have already contacted us for interviews and whatnot--my subsconciousness reminded me of something horrible: What if there'd be no company that accepted me? Where would I end up?
And don't get me started with being "assertive and competitive". Even my personality evaluation is telling me that I'm not that kind of person. At all. I hate it when I have to worry about things. ¬¬
Which brings me to my next thought.
3) I need to remind myself: NOT REALLY A PEOPLE PERSON. No matter how I force myself to be in such a big crowd and be envious of all the people that are getting along so fast and so well, in the end, there's no way I could be like them. I realized thisagain when I attended my organization's leadership workshop. That workshop was supposed to be for the future officers of the organization, and although I wasn't interested in being one, I still attended. I was surprised to learn that despite having age and class differences, everyone knew each other already. So to speak I kind of felt that I was left behind.
*shrugs* I honestly don't know how in the world that happens. LOL. All I can say is that I can't help it that I'm born this way, and I don't like to do something that's not natural to me.
Also? I might be an anti-social.
4) I've been secretly in Backstreet Boys phase right now, as much I've been wanting to hide it for weeks now. XD I guess I've started to miss them again, and forgot how much I'd loved those vocal harmonies and wonderful songs (I'm cheesy, remember? XD). Off the top of my head, favorite songs: Like A Child (from Backstreet's Back), Don't Want to Lose You Now (Millennium), and Climbing the Walls (Never Gone). Also? Even though I'm missing Kevin Richardson, I still absolutely love Unbreakable. :Dv
Just saying. orz
Unfortunately, I still can't check my flist right now. Sorry my dear lovely friends. ;___; I still vow to catch up... I'll catch up with all of your posts if it's the last thing I do. ;___; ♥
And for randomness' sake: I sooo adore my icon. *hides*
And a new tag! *shot*
I'm terribly missing this fandom, especially that I haven't been updated that much with news and shows and stuff like that. :( To tell you honestly, I technically have only three weeks left--not counting the Holy Week--before my finals, and obviously that also means that I've been extremely busy
For that, I'm sorry. m(_ _)m
Anyhoo, I'm already here, so. Updates? :D?
1) My sister, who's graduating Medicine soon, passed her sort-of finals! Yay! :D Everyone calls her "Doctor" now, which is still a little bit weird to me. I know I'll get used to that, but I guess not for now. XD Kidding aside, I remember my sister calling me on the phone three times last week before "the test", constantly telling me that she'd die soon or collapse or get sick or something. (Btw, she rarely calls at all.) One time, she even yelled at me for not telling her not to go on taking Medicine and go to the States instead so she could have become a Medical Technician (her pre-med degree) there. LOL. My sister's usually crazy like that. But that doesn't matter anyway, we have another doctor in the family!
(In case you didn't know, my parents are doctors, and I have many, many relatives who are nurses, doctors and/or have a degree in the science field. orz)
And now I constantly wonder why I wasn't interested
2) I'm starting to have nightmares about my incoming internship. While I have no worries about where I'm getting a stint for my internship--Siemens and Citibank have already contacted us for interviews and whatnot--my subsconciousness reminded me of something horrible: What if there'd be no company that accepted me? Where would I end up?
And don't get me started with being "assertive and competitive". Even my personality evaluation is telling me that I'm not that kind of person. At all. I hate it when I have to worry about things. ¬¬
Which brings me to my next thought.
3) I need to remind myself: NOT REALLY A PEOPLE PERSON. No matter how I force myself to be in such a big crowd and be envious of all the people that are getting along so fast and so well, in the end, there's no way I could be like them. I realized this
*shrugs* I honestly don't know how in the world that happens. LOL. All I can say is that I can't help it that I'm born this way, and I don't like to do something that's not natural to me.
4) I've been secretly in Backstreet Boys phase right now, as much I've been wanting to hide it for weeks now. XD I guess I've started to miss them again, and forgot how much I'd loved those vocal harmonies and wonderful songs (I'm cheesy, remember? XD). Off the top of my head, favorite songs: Like A Child (from Backstreet's Back), Don't Want to Lose You Now (Millennium), and Climbing the Walls (Never Gone). Also? Even though I'm missing Kevin Richardson, I still absolutely love Unbreakable. :Dv
Just saying. orz
Unfortunately, I still can't check my flist right now. Sorry my dear lovely friends. ;___; I still vow to catch up... I'll catch up with all of your posts if it's the last thing I do. ;___; ♥
And a new tag! *shot*
