I HAVE SO MANY FEELINGS

[perfectlyimperfect]

Hey. Long time no see. Okay, I'll get to the point. Because it'll get rambly as I go on. (Don't say I didn't warn you.)

So, as some of my Twitter followers know (@jadenmd if you're unaware #shamelessselfpromotion), this was supposed to be done in Twitter, but when I started writing it down - because I wanted to plan out the character count - IT TURNED OUT TO BE IMPOSSIBLE. You'll realize why in a second.

First, a preface:
I decided to watch the 20th anniversary concert again last Thursday (November 3), because I was randomly listening to V6 in the car and wondered, "Hey, I should watch that concert again because it's been a while" without realizing it was a way of celebrating the guys' 21st anniversary AND that time I watched the concert a year ago. (I realized all of this only when I was in the middle of watching.)

LITTLE DID I KNOW. I was in for one hell of a ride at an inevitable roller coaster of emotions that is V6.

And the highlight? I did something I haven't done for as long as I can remember: I CRIED. THREE TIMES. As a fangirl, I've always said, "im cri" or other variations as a joke online, but I don't remember ever actually crying this hard in a long time. V6 have done me in in the past (Remember Go in Thailand? Yup), but never in the last year or so. And I never cry during concert-viewings because I'm always with someone, but that night, my dad, who sets up everything for me and usually watches with me, decided to sleep early, leaving me alone with my emotions. XD

This happened during KimiKimi (dat a capella singing tho) because I was so overwhelmed with pride and amazement at what V6 can and has done over the years. ;A; ♥ Then Timeless played and that song already made me so emotional last year that I couldn't play the song WEEKS after the concert, so unsurprisingly there was even more crying from me. And then I possibly cried again during Dasenai Tegami, not only because I am in love with that song sfm and I always get emotional anyway when that song plays, but also because it tied up so nicely during the 39 Symphony along with the Thank You's and whatnot of the guys and I was like: ;3; Why do you do dis V6.

Speaking of 39 Symphony, can we talk about how the arrangement of every single V6 has ever done was perfectly executed? If I didn't know these songs well I wouldn't have known the difference in-between transitions. I'm just, still in awe at that. *A*

And then Break The Wall happened, which is one of my most favorite performances of V6 ever and truly convinced me that V6 are undoubtedly great dancers collectively, and while that always impressed me, I had a thought suddenly realized in the back of my mind: V6 concerts are never, ever grand and over-the-top, and they always make sure it is never that. I feel like this has been a preference for them, because that's the kind of guys they are: Simple, never over-the-top. Not saying that being grand is not good nor being simple is always great, but it only goes to show how V6 wants to be seen in their concerts - raw and simplified. That's how they and their talents shine the most. And as a fan, I am more than okay with that.

While I'm at it, can I just ramble on the members, please? I haven't done this in long written form for V6 in detail, because Twitter exists and no one looks at LJ or other blogs anymore (I'd done this for Arashi before I had an ichiban) but like, it always amazes me how they are who they are and they do what they do, as individuals and as V6. I'm just, okay? ;A;

Maa-kun for example. Charms overflowing from my screen aside, the anniversary concert shows how much he has changed over the years (i.e. he mellowed out), but not his heart towards V6. You can see how this anniversary means so much to him in particular. Also, he handsome af irl and I can't ;A; ♥

Nagano Hiroshi is as princely as ever, but he is also forever the sweetest human being on this planet (and maybe even beyond! XD). Even this concert alone confirmed that observation for me. Also, fun fact: I've always had a different bias towards him because we're too much alike in our personalities, and I always understood his point of view no matter what the other members told him. XD Ah, Hiroshi ♥

(I'm skipping to Go for obvious reasons...)

Go may be quiet, reserved and shy, more so when he's on his own, but V6 has always been his solace where he can be who he is and the guys won't mock him or judge him for it. Like, if he's with a different set of people he has the tendency to pull back, but because V6 is his "home", he always feels so comfortable to make jokes and laugh at everything, no matter how dumb. XD ♥

Ken is just TOO HANDSOME for my life especially in this concert, omg I can't and seralambert will back me up on this, because Ken isn't our favorite but OMG HE WAS JUST TOO HANDSOME LIKE WHERE WAS THIS MIYAKE KEN WE KNOW AND SEE ON TV WHO'S ALWAYS CUTE AND HILARIOUSLY FRANK??? I felt like the Ken we saw live was a totally different person because he was not adorable, he was impossibly handsome. *A* How does a man like that exist??? TELL ME.
...seriously though, while he's always too shy to say it, Ken loves V6 and their fans a lot. Actions speak louder than words, yo. ♥

Okada, well, he may forever be an oddball, but he is my spirit animal he is V6's oddball and despite his success, he knows he owes V6 a lot of it - not in a negative way, of course - both because he started there with them and because they allowed him to gain success in his own way (as they have, too!), and look at him now. *_* ♥

*sighs*

Inocchi, man, I could go on FOREVER about him, so I'll just focus on what he said during the Thank You's, particularly about uchiwas. I just. If I understood him correctly, whenever he sees those uchiwas, he imagines the effort that was done in every single one of them (and makes a joke about cutters and stuff, because he's Inocchi XD ♥), so he tries to read and do all of the requests written on them as much as he can. And the reaction he gets when he fulfills those requests - like waving or doing a peace sign - makes him just as happy. Like, it's not only the fact that the fans made something for him, it's also the fact that he did something back and he got an reaction because of it that makes him happy that gets to me the most. It's obviously a two-way street for him and I just. I can't. ;A;

I'm done. At that part, at least. XD BECAUSE THE RIBBONS. They clearly did not know how to react because they were genuinely surprised that the staff and the fans were able to do this without them knowing anything about this at all. (Fans did a great job of not leaking anything to social media, btw. XDb) I could see a few teary-eyed members and ugh, there were just so many great feelings all around. The selfie, the rolling around, the group hugs, ahhhh this group. *A*

Arashi being there was cherry-on-top, so to speak. :D I'm just a lump of happiness right now. I couldn't be any prouder of them. ;A;

I miss V6 sfm and I want to see them again. Next year, hopefully. *A*

Edited because I am a dumb
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Comments

[airairo.livejournal.com]

Ahhh it was so nice to read your feelings! <3333 Thank you for sharing them! :D These guys are really amazing. I know what you mean about them not being super over the top. I feel like they have a really "honest" feel about their concerts. Like I don't mean to say other group's aren't honest about what they do or anything of course but V6 are kinda like hey this is who we are~ in a really simple, straightforward way. Then they just simply and straightforwardly blow your mind with how amazing they are *_*

I totally agree with what you said about the 39 medley it's so beautiful how everything comes together ;__; I'm a super new fan like I just became a fan this year/riiight around the end of last year and I've watched this con so many times now but at first I didn't get all of the parts of the medley. It seemed like every time I watched the concert I'd ~get a new part of the medley and I was like ahhhh and now that I know and can spot all of the little lines of songs they slipped in there (that part where they sing a couple of lines of GENERATION GAP!! ;_;) it's just SO overwhelmingly beautiful <33333 What a thoughtful and lovely medley all the way through <33333

Inocchi is suuuuuch a massive sweetheart it's true ;__; He was so cute at Dreamfes like before HONEY BEAT he told everyone "okay our fans are going to do a thing so just follow along with the person next to you!! :D" and whenever there was any furitsuke he tried to guide the non-V6 fans so everyone could have fun together!! :D <3

Man Ken IS ridiculously handsome irl it's true DDDD: And all of them are just so beautiful. There is something really special about the times when the six of them come together ;_; <3333 I know I've only been a fan for a short time but they've become so important to me this year. I'm so glad I got to know them and become their fan <3333 I bet being at this concert must have been beyond amazing!! *____* Thank you so much for sharing all of your feelings!!! <33333

I hope they'll have a tour next year!!! :D

[perfectlyimperfect]

This is how I deal with most of my feelings so you'll have to get used to it XD jk but thank you for taking the time to read and comment! It means a lot to me especially since LJ isn't as viable as Twitter or Facebook (orz) anymore. ♥♥♥ And exactly, I don't mean disrespect to other groups as they have their own ways of performing in their concerts, but V6 just shines in that way. That's why I'm so glad they stopped using backup dancers years ago.

Oh trust me, I haven't been a fan for that long either (since 2012, but known them since 2008 and unknowingly even earlier because of Inuyasha/CHANGE THE WORLD) and I only got through the older singles because of Super Very Best. XD And right??? GENERATION GAP was unexpectedly wedged in the midst of ballads and it was weirdly a nice surprise! I give props to whoever did that, and props to V6 for opting to include all of the singles as much as possible. :D

NUUUUUU THAT'S ADORABLE DON'T TELL ME THIS I AM ALREADY HELPLESS OVER HIM XD (No srsly tho thank you for sharing! ♥) He's always been a thoughtful guy and he always puts himself in others' shoes and that's what I love about him the most <3 AH *A*

Ken's ridiculous, and no I agree, everyone in V6 actually looks much, much handsomer irl and it always baffles me that TV doesn't justify their good looks. *A* Yes! That's why even though I'd love to see Tonisen in a stage play together next year, I'd rather go to a V6 concert instead because I'd love to see all 6 in one place. ;A;

And I'm glad you became a fan! :D ♥ We're not a lot around here but I'm happy that we're a good cluster (hehe) and we'd love to have you around! It was bit overwhelming being there but in the end, I love V6 and I know they love us ♥♥♥ Thank you for reading!

I hope so too! Maybe we can see each other then :D

[stepcie.livejournal.com]

Thanks for sharing! :D I love reading rambly feelings about V6. I've been trying to rewatch the con DVDs in order for November (my V6 anniversary month project!). I've only gotten through the first two, but the contrast between those and the anniv con is so stark. You can tell they don't really know what they're doing and are trying really hard, whereas in the later cons, they've figured things out and are able to execute amazingly well.

ahhh, I agree with everything you said about the members!! When I just started out as a V6 fan, I remember not being able to appreciate all of the members, but now I can't understand how anyone doesn't love every single one of them XD They're all just so wonderful and amazing. It's also great to watch their dynamic because you can tell they're comfortable around each other, ugh <3

THE RIBBONS. I always get SO teary when I watch that part. You can tell how surprised they are and and that the are genuinely touched by the whole thing. It also seems like they kind of just want to sit there and read ribbons, but the concert is still going on! XD

I already get so emotional watching just the con DVDs - I can't imagine what it must be like to watch them in person! I'm really hoping a tour in 2017, so I can finally go and meet other V6 fans in real life! <3

[perfectlyimperfect]

Nah, thank you for reading! ♥ OMG, I need to actually do this. I always end up watching the latest cons or cons that I've already watched, but never the earlier ones. And maybe that's part of it - what I've seen is V6 already evolved and all I've wanted to see is THAT V6, how good they are. Maybe if I watched the older cons I would appreciate their hard work towards the present V6 even more.

I have the same feeling, though that pretty much sums up any boyband I've ever loved. XD But seriously, their relationship as a group is one of my favorites. <3 It's the years that helped them mold this bond. The first 10 years felt like an obligation that they had to fulfill, and those were the hardest (and oddly, the most famous) times, but the next 10 became a choice. They WANTED to be here, because they've become this solid unit of 6 that knew each other's strengths and weaknesses and how to work around it. I just, I love them a lot. *A*

ME TOO! ;A; Haha, they really wanted to but they have to do one more encore. Sakamoto running off with a handful of ribbons was adorable, though. :3

It can get overwhelming, but super fun! :D Same here! And we should do a fan-gathering of sorts when that time comes <3

[sakenaga13.livejournal.com]

Oh Jessie... *HUGS*

Don't worry you're not alone on this. I *almost* forgot V6's birthday too, and just remembered when it was 9:00 pm. That's also because I accidentally saw something V6 related. I felt like a despicable human being for *almost* forgetting their 21th anniv...
Truth is, I can't. With all of this. Do you know how it feels to love something too much but you can't lay your hands on it? It hurts. And it's kinda my defense mechanism to retreat from all of 'threats' when it hurts. So I tried to not think about V6, because whenever I do I know when they're on tv I can't watch them, when they played butai I couldn't be there, and the worst part-I couldn't attend their concerts.
Man, I love my country with all my heart but sometimes I wished I lived in Japan cz I WANT TO FEEL I HAVE V6 AND I'M CLOSE TO THEM T_T

And Lord knows how many times I've cried because of V6... :')

[perfectlyimperfect]

Hi Sandra! Thanks for the hugs! :D Don't worry about me, I'm just an emotional mess sometimes and that's normal. XD

And no, don't blame yourself for it! It happens! I greeted V6 on Twitter the next day, so it's not like I didn't forget either. LOL

Aww, Sandra! *hugs for you* ♥♥♥♥♥♥
I know this feeling all too well but know that you're not alone and that it's good to take a break sometimes. It happens! I haven't been active in the fandom as well especially this year, but I think that's healthier that we can function without them, even for a while. Don't take it the wrong way, I LOVE V6 and I would never, ever leave them but sometimes you have to step away if it's not doing you any good. *hugs* If you need someone to talk to, my PMs Inbox is always open. I can give you my email too, if you want! I don't post often anymore but I log in from time-to-time for V6 downloads and emotional outbursts, lol.

MORE HUGS BECAUSE YOU NEED IT ♥♥♥

[sakenaga13.livejournal.com]

Hi! Sorry for the really late reply 😵 I was spending last week on my parents. You know the internet sucks there.

Ohh, thank you for your kindness. This is why I love fellow V6 fans. It's like having little family 😆 I have a V6 fan friend here also, but she too was having a little break down over V6. Life's been hard to her, she has to concentrate on her last thesis so it's hard to keep up with V6's schedule. Me & her are kinda being in the blind side here.

Your words meant a lot to me. Sometimes knowing you're not alone makes you feel better already 😆 I wouldn't hesitate to PM you when I have something in mind.

Oh, by the way I TOTALLY missed Jun's birthday, hehe... 😅

[perfectlyimperfect]

Nah, don't worry since this reply is even later. XD

It's true! V6 has one of the nicest fandoms out there and that helps me stay longer in it. :D Aww, tell her I support her! I've been through that and that was not a great time at all. V6 will see her through when she finishes, so she must do her best to get through it! :Db

I'm glad! Just remember that and you'll be fine. :D Sad things happen, but know that you're not alone. ♥

XD I'm sure a lot of other fans have, as well.